Bad Dreams

The dreams are bad.

They aren't the worst part, but they are pretty bad. I don't have dreams as much as I used to, not if I stick to the meds, but sometimes they happen. I guess it could be that I just don't remember them.

That's good I suppose.

I've heard that there are people who suffer from something called "sleep paralysis" where people aren't really awake, but they aren't really asleep either and their muscles don't response, so they just lay there in bed, frozen. Some people claim to see things, like dark figures around their bed.

That would suck.

I don't have that, so I don't know what kind of suffering people who have stuff like that or night terrors deal with, but whenever I have bad dreams and wake up, even if I don't remember the dreams, I remember what it was like to hear Sara's voice in the darkness. I can still remember what it felt like to have chains on my wrists. I can still remember the smells from being locked up for months.

Like I said, the dreams aren't the worst part.

And this might not make sense now, but it will make more sense after the next episode. It's just something that I'm supposed to do. Call it immersion therapy I guess. Which, without context is just going to result in you judging me, but I understand.